Tonight*

Tonight i cried bittersweet tears.
I felt alone
And i felt bad.
But i knew it was my fault.
I was giving up way to easy'
I just wasn't strong enough.
After the hurricane of arguing with my best friend who was disappointed i cut again.. Came the storm of crying.
I couldn't stop my tears from falling.
They joined my cheeks just for a little sweet moment.. 
I am just waiting for my rainbow to come. 
To take me home*



©Adina K.

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