WIESO ?!

Hopeless .. worthless ..Diese stumpfen, rettlungslos traurigen Augen spiegeln sich im zerbrochenen Glas ..
WIESO ?!
langsam fliesst das dunkle, warme Blut über ihre Arme ..
Die Tropfen fallen zu Boden & vermischen sich mit den Tränen .. Tränen der Verzweiflung , des verlorenen Mutes, sie sind die Zeugen des Selbsthasses ..
Erlöst von den Problemen, verlassen vom Lebensmut & der Kraft .. zu Boden sinken ..
WIESO ?!
Die Seele zersplittert .. unüberwindbarem Schmerz .. von tiefsten, nie verschwindenden Narben ..
Wertlos .. diese eine Frage .. würde mich jemand vermissen ?
Ein Leben .. Ohne greifbaren Sinn ..



© Adina K.

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Da sitzen, die Tränen langsam in die Augen aufsteigen, nur fühlen, der Worte kein Grund unterliegt – stillschweigen. Innerlich tot, deine Lebenskraft fortschreitend versiegt, niemand sah deine Not, schwerelos, gefühllos, schwebend – es fliegt. Ein dunkler langer Tunnel, was dein Blick sieht, ehe es plötzlich geschieht, blinzeln. kraftlos, machtlos, sinnlos, dein Leben weiter fliesst, atemlos, nutzlos, leblos du stirbst. © Adina K.
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