A promise to death
Currently I could jump off of a cliff and I wouldn't even care. I would be happy for this freaking shit show to finally be over. The only thing that keeps me from doing it, you're asking? I'm afraid of surviving. I don't wanna be the one that "survived jumping off a bridge". I don't want anybody to talk with me about these feelings and why I did it. Why I'd even chose to end my life. I just want this, all of this to stop. the only thing that hold me back is the fact that surviving would be worse than dying. So if I ever find a bridge or a cliff high enough for me to be sure to be dead this might as well be my promise to fucking take the leap.